Baby You Should Go and Love Yourself

I posted something similar to this last week for #WCW on my social accounts, but I really wanted to dig a little deeper on this topic, especially after soaking up some extra QT over the extended Labor Day weekend.  Can we just have three day weekends every week?!?

So here goes ripping off the personal band aid a little more…

On the daily, I scroll through my news feeds on Instgram or Facebook and catch myself starting to over analyze, or worse yet compare myself to others.  The idea I should always look a certain way, maintain the perfect magical number on the scale, the need to always dress to impress, the constant worrying if people will like me or worse yet, try to fit in while losing myself, the pressure to post every milestone moment to keep up, the constant ad link or sale to enable the shopping experiences in order to keep up with the latest fashion trends, the quest for clicks and likes…it can all be exhausting and quite frankly isn’t how I want to live my life.  This side blog project has been a critical part in my self-discovery journey, but it has also enabled my love of shopping and battle for wanting to be socially accepted.  The balance of finding new and fun content, while trying to stay true to myself, my goals, and my promises to our bank account is a grind.  Let me say it again, the struggle is real ya’ll!

To try and combat some of this “tough stuff”, I’ve been doing a lot of deep soul searching as of late.  I credit 99% of it to my amazing acupuncturist Nicole, who is guiding me on this spiritual enlightenment journey.  So here we go.  I’m putting in on paper again and blasting it loud and clear so the universe can hear me!!!

My wish list for the universe…

  • I wish I could go back to my 25 year old self and tell her not to worry about meeting her prince charming, and to trust that he will come her way when she least expects it…

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  • I wish I could tell her not to force the next step and believe that she will have her fairytale marriage one day, but also that real life happens and it won’t always be perfect (and that’s ok!)…

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  • I wish I could tell her not to waste a single second of life arguing with her loved ones, because tomorrow they could be gone (which is hard for us stubborn Italians!)…
  • I wish I could tell her not to push away the one person who loved her unconditionally, and eventually had to give his baby girl to another man to share her heart forever…
  • I wish I could tell her not to be insecure with the path she’s on, and to trust the journey…
  • I wish I could reassure her that she is worthy of all of her wildest dreams coming true, but to appreciate what she has, be present in the moment, and to pay that gratitude forward…

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  • I wish I could remind her to never forget where she came from and what it took to get her where she is today (and boy did it take a freaking village!)…WCW Home and Family
  • I wish I could tell her that not placing her trust in a higher power would lead to disappointment and having to dig for the soul searching “tough stuff” down the road…
  • I wish I could remind her to trust that the universe has her back, to continue to take her hands off the wheel, and to hold out that the universe will deliver all of those asks as it sees fit…
  • I wish I could go back and erase the hurtful things people said that made her doubt herself…
  • I wish I could bottle the strength it took for her to push beyond that dark time and always keep that fire in her belly alive…
  • I wish she never compromises her integrity to fit in and be one of “the girls”, because real friends love you for who you are, not what you bring to the table…
  • I wish that she remembers when people throw shade or make passive digs and snarky remarks, they are really covering their own deep-rooted insecurities (note to self to remember this applies to her words as well!)…
  • I wish all of this so much that I think I will tell her today, and keep reminding her every single day to come that she continues to be worthy of all of this and more! 

Another one of my spiritual gurus sent me this quote and it rang so loud and true for what was racing through my mind that particular day, that it almost smacked me on the forehead.  In the spirit of sharing and growing together –  “You’ve got a new story to write. And it looks nothing like your past.”

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Thank you universe for again reminding me to chill out and enjoy the ride!

XO,

Amanda

316 Days

316 is a big number.  It represents almost a full calendar year of life zooming by and is the number of days between my last blog post and this one.  I’m a little (ok a lot) embarrassed that once again, I let myself get derailed with this crazy thing called life.  I’ve recently been missing one of the things that brings me so much joy, which is connecting with all of you and using this blog as a creative outlet.  Sooo, I’m forcing myself to get back in the game like Klay Thompson in the fourth quarter (don’t be sad Warriors fans, he’ll be back!) and feeling all kinds of inspired as of late.  So inspired that I’m even thinking of re-branding the blog and giving it a fresh name change.  I would welcome any suggestions from all of you re: names and clever titles using my last name, rainbow sprinkles and/or glitter of course…wink wink!

Here are the contenders so far:

  • The Real_MrsRoybal (to match my Insta account)
  • The Roybal Fashion Club
  • Glitter is My Favorite Color (might be taken already, need to research!)
  • A Sprinkles Life (too vague or random?)

In other exciting news…I’m working diligently on connecting my Instagram world with this platform so we can really turn up the heat…oooo baby!!!  I follow so many amazing bloggers and my dream is to one day be on another level with them building my tribe of smart, funny, sassy, bad ass, pure, kind folks looking to have some fun, say a few bad words without guilt, and get freaking real with each other!  I want this to a be a JUDGEMENT FREE zone and positive space for any human to connect with.  Seriously, there is no room for that negative ish anywhere here, k bye Felicia!

And to really step out of my comfort zone, I even did my first #ootd video on my Insta stories yesterday with a new Amazon dress I snagged for a killer deal.  I was blown away by the views and how many amazing compliments and DMs I received throughout the day from old friends and new connects, all saying something sweet or encouraging me for more posts like that very one…crazy!  Which brings me to my second ask for the day —> please give me a follow on Instagram under the handle thereal_mrsroybal to get a sneak peak of the content that’ll be coming on the blog.  Also bear with me as I play around with my Insta stories and posts while I try and figure out this whole technology thing…I swear I’ve used a computer since age eight in the first grade (insert face palm emoji now)!

But for now, I’ll leave you with the image of me enjoying this oreo stuffed churro at the local fair last weekend.  It was the first time I’ve had real/processed sugar in the last five weeks, and it was pure fucking J.O.Y.!!!

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Living my best churro life! #noregrets

Until next time glitter lovers…

XO,

Amanda

 

 

 

Letting Go…

It’s been quite a while since I’ve touched the computer keys dedicated to a blog post. I always have the best of intentions to stay consistent, but life happens and time slips away so darn quickly…and I’m not even a parent yet! No more excuses – I know, I know!!!

Today’s post is a selfish one. There’s no DIY tutorial, or recipe to follow, or latest fashion trend/sale that I scored on. Today’s post comes from a deeper place, a raw place. I also didn’t know where to put it on the blog, so I’ll call it “uncategorized” for now…very atypical for me who likes everything in its place!

Where to begin…

A little over a year ago, I wholeheartedly let a family member into my life. So much so that it was Facebook official (huge deal, right?!?). In the beginning things were going really well until one day they weren’t. I tried so very hard to put my gut feelings aside (you know those instincts you always follow that are 99.9% frustratingly right). I started to rationalize things like the little digs or tit-for-tat comments as just part of the gig, and continued to try and make it work, because that’s what families do, right? At least that’s what I was taught growing up in a large and often times too-close Italian family. Little by little, the once otherwise strong relationships in that same family unit began to suffer and the subject grew awkward and almost untouchable. At first, I didn’t pay much attention. In fact, it didn’t really hit me until we were on our trip in Italy this past Spring. The tides had turned and now the venom was directed at us (my husband and I). It was like a light bulb went flashing on so insanely bright and it was all so clear to me. I finally realized what the catalyst was – the exact person I let in a year prior. Crazy! We got home from our trip and I decided NO MORE. I was choosing my happiness and sanity over any family experience – good or bad. This tidal switch (or what I now refer to as an invaluable life lesson) was the change I needed to stand up for myself and protect what’s most important to me. You see my husband is a pro at boundaries and not giving energy to things that don’t matter. It’s one of the things I admire most about him – his kind heart, but also his ability to take care of himself and now me – our little Roybal family.

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So where’s this all going? I can honestly say I just had to get it out and have made a promise to myself to not spend any time or even this blog post as a bash session about this person. In fact I’m not even going to ask my psyche “why?” or “what did I/we do to deserve this?”. Instead, I’m going to LET GO all of the negative from this experience and send happiness and healing to this person in hopes that they find their own internal peace and content place. I’ve come to realize the hard way that envy and jealously are the true thieves of joy, and I’m not about to let anyone or anything come between my joy or the personal work I’ve put in to create this amazing life I get to share with my husband!

So I’ll leave you with this. A very good friend of mine once said, “people come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime”. Today I thought well shoot, that’s just genius!

Until next time glitter lovers ❤

XO,

Amanda