Baby You Should Go and Love Yourself

I posted something similar to this last week for #WCW on my social accounts, but I really wanted to dig a little deeper on this topic, especially after soaking up some extra QT over the extended Labor Day weekend.  Can we just have three day weekends every week?!?

So here goes ripping off the personal band aid a little more…

On the daily, I scroll through my news feeds on Instgram or Facebook and catch myself starting to over analyze, or worse yet compare myself to others.  The idea I should always look a certain way, maintain the perfect magical number on the scale, the need to always dress to impress, the constant worrying if people will like me or worse yet, try to fit in while losing myself, the pressure to post every milestone moment to keep up, the constant ad link or sale to enable the shopping experiences in order to keep up with the latest fashion trends, the quest for clicks and likes…it can all be exhausting and quite frankly isn’t how I want to live my life.  This side blog project has been a critical part in my self-discovery journey, but it has also enabled my love of shopping and battle for wanting to be socially accepted.  The balance of finding new and fun content, while trying to stay true to myself, my goals, and my promises to our bank account is a grind.  Let me say it again, the struggle is real ya’ll!

To try and combat some of this “tough stuff”, I’ve been doing a lot of deep soul searching as of late.  I credit 99% of it to my amazing acupuncturist Nicole, who is guiding me on this spiritual enlightenment journey.  So here we go.  I’m putting in on paper again and blasting it loud and clear so the universe can hear me!!!

My wish list for the universe…

  • I wish I could go back to my 25 year old self and tell her not to worry about meeting her prince charming, and to trust that he will come her way when she least expects it…

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  • I wish I could tell her not to force the next step and believe that she will have her fairytale marriage one day, but also that real life happens and it won’t always be perfect (and that’s ok!)…

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  • I wish I could tell her not to waste a single second of life arguing with her loved ones, because tomorrow they could be gone (which is hard for us stubborn Italians!)…
  • I wish I could tell her not to push away the one person who loved her unconditionally, and eventually had to give his baby girl to another man to share her heart forever…
  • I wish I could tell her not to be insecure with the path she’s on, and to trust the journey…
  • I wish I could reassure her that she is worthy of all of her wildest dreams coming true, but to appreciate what she has, be present in the moment, and to pay that gratitude forward…

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  • I wish I could remind her to never forget where she came from and what it took to get her where she is today (and boy did it take a freaking village!)…WCW Home and Family
  • I wish I could tell her that not placing her trust in a higher power would lead to disappointment and having to dig for the soul searching “tough stuff” down the road…
  • I wish I could remind her to trust that the universe has her back, to continue to take her hands off the wheel, and to hold out that the universe will deliver all of those asks as it sees fit…
  • I wish I could go back and erase the hurtful things people said that made her doubt herself…
  • I wish I could bottle the strength it took for her to push beyond that dark time and always keep that fire in her belly alive…
  • I wish she never compromises her integrity to fit in and be one of “the girls”, because real friends love you for who you are, not what you bring to the table…
  • I wish that she remembers when people throw shade or make passive digs and snarky remarks, they are really covering their own deep-rooted insecurities (note to self to remember this applies to her words as well!)…
  • I wish all of this so much that I think I will tell her today, and keep reminding her every single day to come that she continues to be worthy of all of this and more! 

Another one of my spiritual gurus sent me this quote and it rang so loud and true for what was racing through my mind that particular day, that it almost smacked me on the forehead.  In the spirit of sharing and growing together –  “You’ve got a new story to write. And it looks nothing like your past.”

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Thank you universe for again reminding me to chill out and enjoy the ride!

XO,

Amanda